today i went to s.p wif ky..at first v ate lunch den v went to watch de secret..de movie really touched...i cried...at first i really very happy..after watched movie, i'm waiting to sing k...but a unlucky things had happen...i saw him walking wif a gal n passed by me..i dunno he saw me anot..but i felt he likes 'hui bi' us..mayb scared us saw him n a gal..when i saw him, my hearts beats very fast..fast until i cant breathe..i think god let me met him is juz wan to tell me dat he got gf n not to disturb n stop like him...but it's really hurts me..i dun understand y i will meet him...i dun understand y is today..de day i go out wif my frenz..haiz...i felt regret dat i din tell him dat i like him...i oso felt regret to like a person like him...i noe i shudnt like him..but i juz cant control my feeling..i juz noe dat i really like him..n i felt sad when noe dat he got gf..i dun hope it's truth but it's really true..n i noe i shud accept de fact..but who knows dat to accept tis fact it's really take away much my energy..sometimes i really hate him..but i more hate myself coz i like him..i'm feel dat i'm useless n stupid...but wat can i do??i'm really like him..i noe dat nobody can help me unless myself..i promise myself i will be beta dan ever...plz believe me!!
at last..i cried..i cried...i cried... plz forgive me...i'm juz cant control de feeling... sorry... sorry..... sorry.......
